Me and My life: Poverty because of chronic illness

Now, i worked a bit on the blog. I'm more and more satisfied with it. It could become a sort of oasis isle within the Internet.

I'm honest and i confess, that i also run this blog to earn money. (yet i didn't earned anything at all, yet)

Being able to make a "money machine" with what you like, this would be a dream! I think it really need a high intelligence and/or passion to do so.

Until now, i was always too lazy to write frequent blog entries, also because I'm never in the mood to write so much german... ^^
(its so scratchy and exhausting)

Some details more about me:

I'm really poor and often have trouble to buy everything that i need.
It starts with food, where i really have to make wise decisions as buy things in a special offer or more kg of it, and everything like that. I need to eat really healthy so that my diseases improve. Many vegetables i can only afford, when they are offered cheaper.
Often i buy cheap stuff, that is also healthy. Like Potatoes, apples, onions, carrots. Quinoa i buy in 9 kg so it is cheaper.
I am a very good cook and can cook amazing stuff out of everything. I'm really a food enthusiast, and buying/cooking food makes me really happy!

Some food is very expensive but also very, very healthy like avocado, nuts, papaya....

Its so worth it, and that's why i spend very much money on food every month. I'm just a passionate cook and appreciate good food. I really love it!

I also need other health products as zeolite, coconut oil, natron, spirulina, tumeric, xylitol , magnesium chloride, castor oil, and so on and on. (sorry, if the terms for the above are german)
Sometimes i brew a drink out of garlic and lemons with peal. I need to buy these things from the bio store, it has to be absolute pesticide free for this. Also not cheap.

Some of these things i have to ask my parents to give me for Christmas or birthday.


Here some good looking food as well:

Where i really save money is on clothes. I shop for clothes extremely rarely, also because i simply hate it! ;-)
I hate nothing more, than wriggle out of my layered winter clothes in a super overheated second hand store, full of softener smell, to which I'm allergic, store being filled of stressed, unhappy woman, atmosphere there is usually is filled with complexions and the shame about poverty.
Trying on clothes is not such fun for me, looking to the mirror, with my chronic optic neuritis which depraves my sight of depth and other visual abilities... Vision is no fun for me, its rather a migraine trigger.

But at least I am not ashamed of being poor! *laughter

Er, yes and when you wonder now, why i don't work, i can tell you that too.


I'm chronically sick. I was never healthy in my life.

Even as a child, i have had headache everyday, often migraine, heart problems.
When i grew older i got a lots of neurological problems. I have a very strong vertigo from time to time. It feels like I'm drunk. Sometimes i have also movement problems or abnormal muscle rigor.


As you see in the picture of my pants and shoes, i still kept my humor. :-)


To conclude, I'm only able to be active every 3. rd day. I'm usually sick for more than half of the time. And with sick i mean, that i can not go out anymore.

Very often, i go out and be active even though i am too sick, just because I'm a very active and optimistic  and mostly happy person. I'm full of ideas and plans and there are always so much things i want to do. Its not healthy for me to be too active, but i started to live for the moment since i went through times i wasn't sure if I'm going to even have a future.
You know what i mean?

Yes, i life for fun, because if I'm very happy i also have less pain. Most pain medications don't really work for me, so i meditate. I meditate to produce lots of endorphin to get really high, so i don't suffer so much from my pain.

I can feel like on ecstasy, and that's no overrating. I think, god gave me that ability so i can endure my shitty sick live.

I am very thankful, for what i have.

I love my life and its really fun even in spite of all the pain and disability.

But what i really could use is a pair of good durable shoes.^^

If you want to help me with a little money, please directly donate me via paypal. rottenfurby@gmail.com

Look, here is even my baked apple i recently made:

Otherwise, if you plan to buy something expensive on ebay, amazon or aliexpress, send me the link and i convert the link to an affiliate link. You pay the exact same amount of money as before and i earn a little percentage of platform fees.
This almost only pays out, if more expensive things are bought, like beyond 30€ or $.