Friday, November 30, 2018

The pore vacuum - does it work?

Hello!

Today the pore vacuum i ordered arrived in the mail!!!

I'm very, very exited to try this out! 😀😀😀😀😀😀

First:
...Er, I know the subject and the physical function of the device is a bit disgusting.
But we are all adults, right? We admit, that we all have pores and natural skin greases.

!!!!!TRIGGER WARNING!!! HIGH RESOLUTION FOOTAGE OF SKIN PORES BELOW!!!!

(Sorry, i deleted the pics because i think it shows to much of my face and i wanna stay anonymous. Please understand it.)

...And some of us tend to impure skin, unluckily me, too. My skin has gotten a LOT better with Zeolite skinmasks. I can only recommend Zeolite for the skin, honestly. Its much better than even charcoal facial masks.

Touching and picking on ones skin too much isn't healthy, it only leads to even more impurities. But if facial masks with zeolite or charcoal aren't enough to remove deep impurities, i need something stronger.
I googled around, and found devices like this here:

Of course, in pink.^^

I took a before - picture of my skin today when i was at a place with bright light:

(I'm sorry for every detail you see here.... 😅)

Yeah, so it looks... Not tooo great, but also not too bad. I'm just a mammal, ok? Yes, and i know my nose isn't perfect. :-P


Here's the front. The Joaquin Phoenix scar is not a dueling scar and not a cleft lip!
It was a deep cat scratch when i was a very small child. I absolutely love cats, tho!  

These photos are taken on a very cold day, when i just went in a clothing store and tried on some troughsers. I wear no make up at all. My skin is a bit reddish and swollen because of coming to a warm store from the cold outside.
I'm aware that I'm not perfect and i never said, I'm perfect.

I just wanted to document the before - pictures, here.

That instruction card came with the pore vacuum:




I already tried it. The handling is a little difficult at first. I'm not entirely sure if its too little suction or too much. The suction can hurt a bit.
Is has 3 modes of suction intensities.

Very nasty blackheads still persist, but if too much suction is used it can leave some suction bruises. I really wanna avoid to be full of suction bruises tomorrow! ^^

At first i used it in a way, it felt ok and i didn't tried it too hard.















I washed my face very thorough before, twice. Then i kept my face above the hot watercooker to steam - widen the pores. (unfortunately i have no better way to do that yet)
It really sucked out some dirt, but not very much.
That's the substance that came out:
Yuck!
Its surely from all the Diesel exhausts!

I think i have to wait a certain time and for better light conditions, until I can make a results picture. I don't want to post my fresh after-suction-skin in the bad light here. That's not showing anything, but slightly irritated skin....

The skin is not very irritated and i feels basically good. I will repeat it in a few days. When i see changes of my skin, ill tell you that here.

Buy a pore vacuum here in red, black or white:
pore vacuum red, black, white 16,59$

Buy a pore vacuum in pink:
pore vacuum pink, 14$

Update:
I used it twice now. It removed some dirt after i washed my face very thorough and my pores look much cleaner now! I like it very much! The pores are much less visible and I've never seen my skin on the nose so pure! Very sturdy impurities don't wanna get sucked out tho, yet. Maybe i need more experience and sklill using the device.
I also ordered a black head softening fluid now and will try out if the pores get even cleaner with it.
It leads to only minimal irritation and only if i vacuum an area to often or too long. I used it mainly on the nose. I dont think it can be harmful if used with care and common sense.
I'm very satisfied with it! With more experience and skill, this could really be the perfect solution to clean my pores to perfect skin!
I'm glad i ordered it and can recommend it so far.
Pictures of my nose will follow but please have patience.

What the.....?

I somehow have a weird "pixel" on my blog. Its visible in some entries. I have no idea, what happend there.

Does soemone know what is this?

Resistant starch from Potato tornados - terrible idea

Hello!

Because i cant help myself but to really doubt that cooling for 5 hour will reduce the calories of ramen by half, i decided to make resistant starch from a snack that i really love - potato tornadoes!

Potato tornadoes are a wonderful fastfood, even suitable for weightloss if oil is used sparse.
i bought an oil sprayer just to bake low fat potato tornadoes! i can really recommend oil sprayer for everyone who wants to bake with only little oil.

The other great thing of potato tornadoes is, that they are healthy. The potatoes doesn't need to be cooked, to dispense their vitamins in to the cooking water that will only be poured away. The best thing to cook potatoes is to sizzle them with very little oil or to bake them with very little oil or even no oil.
Please don't bake potatoes in tin foil, I'm not sure that the aluminum isn't going into the potatoes. Please avoid ALL aluminum, since its considered to be a potential cause of neurodegenerative diseases.

Here some arousing pictures of delicious potato tornadoes first of all:



Oh dear, they are so yummy!

The top is crispy like potato chips and the other areas are soft.
A perfect composition!!!

I spray them thinly with the oil sprayer and sprinkle some potato fries spices on them. Paprika, curry, onion, pepper, cumin, chili, garlic and so on...

Then i bake them at 392 degree Fahrenheit until toe top side get brown edges.
better don't bake them too crispy, because it WILL be higher in acrylamide then. (Which is so far, the only disadvantage of this delicious snack)



 Another picture with my hand as a measuring scale.

To home make these precious potato snacks, you only need such a crank:
If your skilled with your hands, you will be able to make very good potato tornadoes, just with that. That thingy only costs about 1$.^^ (I recommend to buy a few, because mine broke after 4 month of frequent use^^)

I'm sure, that's the cheapest link:
 Buy spiral cutter for only 0,75$

And here the oil sprayer, too:
Oil sprayer 6,65$

Cheapest link i found.
Btw.: You cant use a normal spraybottle to spray oil, believe my, i already tried it.

Metal skewers 10 pc 3$

(the same that i have)

These are the potato tornadoes that i baked yesterday evening.




I intended to put them in the fridge overnight.

I was skeptical.

They look really nice in the box, though.





















(The picture is taken immediately after their were baked)


Now i came home, looking forward to eat yummiest potato tornadoes with lots of resistant starch and even their calories decimated. ^^

I opened the box, that has been in the fridge the whole time:








Here's how they changed:


























I ate a few and unluckily I'm not very pleased. No crisp anymore. And the taste is also not good. Its hard to describe, but somehow the tastes remembers to raw potatoes. Also the consistency became somehow floury in a way that wasn't good.

Conclusion:
I'm not very happy to announce that potato tornadoes doenst commend themselves as a good resistant starch fastfood.




Thursday, November 29, 2018

Resistant starch from ramen noodles?

Hello!

!!!!!TRIGGER WARNING!!!!! PICTURES OF VERY DELICIOUS BUT VERY UNHEALTHY FASTFOOD BELOW  ;-D !!!!!

Recently i read a lot about resistant starch and the more i read the more it fascinates me.

The gut is so important for the whole body and also even mental health, we all should care well for out gut.
Its such a great thing that we easily can nourish good bacteria in our gut, by simple letting our food cool down a while before we eat it!

That brought me to an idea. You know that i really love instant ramen noodles, even tho im a health enthusiast?
Today i just thought why not cooking ramen in the morning and then eating it in the evening, to create resistant starch in it. I wonder if the ramen noodles get more nutritional value then and have much less calories. Oh dear, that would be a dream! feasting ramen without bad consciousness!

Maybe its just a desperate hope that instant ramen could be healthier and a self deceit as well^^ Hahahahahah!

I'm a sly self deceiver.^^ (But i always immediately notice it)

Unluckily research among resistant start is still at the beginning. The theory, that the calories of  carbohydrates HALF then, sound very very dared if you ask me.

Nobody can tell my how much less calories my ramen noodles now had, then fresh made, hot noodles.
I only can see the result on the weighing scale if i do that more often.

Well, lets always try to do it from now, on when cook ramen. The only problem is, that cooking ramen makes me incredible hungry and then i cant help myself but devouring everything immediately.

My favourite ramen tastes very great if its cold and not freshly cooked. Sometimes even better. Perfect!
My favourite ramen is of course..... can you guess it? ^^
Yes, ist samyang buldak bokkeum meyon.

For my first trial to create resistant starch in ramen noodles in made with a ramen variety that is intended to be served cold. Its of course Samyang Ice type *laughter*

 The ready cooked noodles with chinese morel, with goji berries and scallion. And also a slice of processed cheese melted into the noodles.

I let it in the fridge for about 5 hours at least.
Then i poured the sauce over it and garnished with bacon and dried laver flakes.

Here is the incredibly yummy result:

While i ate it, i really hoped not to gain weight.

Are you interested in nutrition? Do you know more about resistant starch? Do you thing i can make resistant starch out of ramen noodles, and i yes, how much?

How much calories will reduce?

The whole Noodle dish (without any garnish) has 600 kcal total.
What you you think how much it will have, when cooled for 5 hours?

300? That would be my dream came true, honestly.  Hahahahhahahahhah!

Now, to make your mouth watery here are some ery delicios ramen pics:
(i know, im mean)














Its all Samyang on all the pictures.





My god, i love ramen.

Comment if you think the calories get reduced with the resistant starch method! (And how much you think, the calories get reduced)

And if you think now: My god, that person must be obese from all the ramen...
No, my BMI is 19,4.
I really eat it rarely.
But if i eat it, its like birthday and christmas together.
Foodgasm.

Wednesday, November 28, 2018

Buffalo mozzarella and chicory

I once went to a local food bank that distributes food to the poor and needy.
Just just have to show that you get money from the state, because your jobless and then you can go there once a week to get food for fee or for 1€. It takes place in a church or something similar.

They distribute food that food stores sorted out. Some of the vegetables are not so fresh anymore or near expiration while other foods are very great and even expensive stuff.
 You can get vegetables there, fruits, bread, milk and other stuff. Always different stuff.

I once got some buffalo mozzarella there and it was very awesome quality, too!
Never ever ate buffalo mozzarella in my life before and the taste was at first a bit unusual, so intense and buffalo-like (what ever this is supposed to mean^^) but also sooo heavenly soft and mild creamy, refreshingly pure milky. I was surprised by the liquid core and sceptical about it. After some reading about it in the Internet, i needed a while to get used to it and at first i couldn't decide whether its incredible yummy or somehow a bit disgusting.

To the misfortune of my wallet, i decided that it is incredible yummy.

When i shop for food i cant help to take a look if they sell some buffalo mozzarella for a price that i can afford with a lot of teeth grinding.

Buffalo mozzarella is very delicate and can turn sour quickly. It the cooling chain is interrupted you might buy some buffalo mozzarella that is already sour, even though its still more than i week to expiration date.

The insider hint is to buy that buffalo mozzarella, that is at least 10 days or more before the expiration date. The more time before the expiration date the better!

 Buffalo mozzarella looses tastes everyday, so its the best so consume it soon enough.

Unfortunately buffalo mozzarella supports animal cruelty, since the male animals get killed in a very cruel way. Its really sad and i am aware of it.
If animal well being matters beyond everything to you, you should not buy buffalo mozzarella.

I, for myself buy buffalo mozzarella only very rarely and my appetite is unluckily greater than my concern about animals. I also eat meat, I'm egoistic and i confess that. I'm still very sorry for the animals and it hurts to think about it.

Ok, back to nicer subjects.

What i recently also very love is chicory. I really love the fine, exquisite, noble, bitter taste.
Its also very healthy and weightloss supportive. Chicory has only 17 kcal a 100gr.
The bitter taste in it comes from a substance named intybin and it helps to produce bile fluid, which is good and cleaning for the liver.

I originally started to eat lots of chicory salad to help my detoxing.
I take zeolite and it ends up in my guts, where it binds various toxins. These toxins could otherwise be reabsorbed in the enterohepatic circulation and like that i can happens that toxins accumulate in the body. :( Not good for you.
Not good for your health, your look, your weight and your mood.

Now, in this process its helpful to have more bile secretes to enhance the detoxing.
 
Sorry, if the graphic is a bit blurry.

If you want to help your liver more, put a warm hot water bottle on your liver area and relax about at least 45 minutes each day. Not too hot, please.
The warmth enhances the blood circulation in your liver so it gets supplied with more energy and nutrients. It will boost its function a little and is a very calming ritual too. Do it in the evening, it can make you tired.

That's why I'm going to buy lots of chicory today. I also love the taste. Here in germany, in costs 1,15€ per 500 gr if your lucky. That's ok. (maybe really cheap compared to other countries food prices)
 If you buy chicory, look out for some that is stored dark. (its always better to buy vegetables from the dark, that weren't exposed to the bright artificial lights of a food store.)
I like chicory best with honey mustard dressing.

By the way, buffalo mozzarella and chicory go well together.^^ The bitter taste of the chicory lets the buffalo mozzarella tastes lightly sweet.

On top of it all i decorate it with a bit of balsamic cream.


Buffalo mozzarella minis with avocado on top of chicory - a real indulgence!!!!

Hahahaha!
You know what?

Ive just been to the Aldi and what was sold price reduced?
Buffalo mozzarella!!! I got some for only 1,03€ a 100 gr! I thought somehow that god wanted to pet my shoulder with that! :-D
That pic shows what i eat right now

 So yummy!

Tuesday, November 27, 2018

Quinoa with buckwheat with whole grain noodles

Recently i really like the above mentioned food!

It is very satisfying to eat it, the taste of buckwheat goes s0 well with quinoa and even whole grain noodles!

You now wonder, why in the world i cook whole grain noodles together with quinoa and buckwheat?

If i cook them this way, i don't have to pour away the cooking water with all the vitamins infused in it. I always hate to pour away cooking water of anything healthy. Bought a steam cooker, too that's why. :-)

Back to quinoa, buckwheat and whole grain noodles.
It all has the same cooking time. I like combining some nice whole grain cereals or pseudocereals or lentils with the same cooking time. I think the different spectres of vitamins and nutrients complete each other and help to enhance bioavailability furthermore. :-)

Also the taste of it gets more balanced out! It tastes great and satisfying just with butter and salt.
Just buckwheat could have such a weird aftertaste... But this even tastes good together with other grains.

It is really really healthy. Its definitely not low carb, but at least is has complex carbohydrates that make you sated fr very long.

It surely has a lot of b - vitamins and other good ingredients. Its pure food for the nerves.^^
I'm sure it contains much trypophan, too.
Tryptophan is the substance many hormones of happiness are synthesized off. :-D

(Maybe that's why I'm happy?)

Here is a pic of it:
 Now, when i see that picture, i can assure you it tastes better, than it looks^^

 I could have added red lentils too, their cooking time is about 12 minutes.
Nothing special, but combined with vegetables and some good meat or fish its surely a great way to make more out of the meal.

I maybe have pictures of alike food, ive got to look....

Here, thats something i also really like to buy:
 6 different cereals in there. Its not expensive. Surely a good thing for health. (in the background is my messy kitchen^^)

Diversity is a good thing! That's why i suppose to mix different grains together. Also different kinds of lentils are good together, even though some lentils will be softer and others stay harder.

And now another very, very important advise:

All these precious grains contain phytic acid! That's a substance that binds minerals and leads to the lack of these minerals. It also reduces the bioavailability of vitamins and nutrients.

To reduce the phytic acid to a good amount, let the grains soak in water at least for 12 hours. Over night at least.
Then pour the water away and cook the grains.

A better method is fermentation, but this is too much extra efforts for me, the industry and convenience food pampered capital city modern citizen.^^

Uggh, by such sentences i feel my concentration fade away......

I'm really tired, sick and unwell.

I have to take my pain medication.

Next day:
I don't no why, but this food is so delicious that i want to eat it today again.
In the morning (13:27 is morning for me^^) i cook a larger amount of it.

I will eat a little bit and put the rest in the fridge. When it cools down for several hours, some amount of the starch will transform to resistant starch.
Resistant starch can´t be digested and wont make you gain weight. But it makes your stomach full for a long time and is very good for the guts. Resistant starch feeds the friendly bacteria in your intestine, having a positive effect on the type of bacteria as well as their number.
Resistant starch has a lot of benefits:
This includes improved insulin sensitivity, lower blood sugar levels, reduced appetite and various benefits for digestion. And even more benefits!
If your into nutrition and especially weightloss, you should get in touch with resistant starch. Its an effective way to improve the healthy value of a meal, reduce the calories and still eat the absolute same amount. Isn't that great? :-D

Here are the different resistant starch types:
  • Type 1: Is found in grains, seeds and legumes and resists digestion because it’s bound within the fibrous cell walls.
  • Type 2: Is found in some starchy foods, including raw potatoes and green (unripe) bananas.
  • Type 3: Is formed when certain starchy foods, including potatoes and rice, are cooked and then cooled. The cooling turns some of the digestible starches into resistant starches via retrogradation (3).
  • Type 4: Is man-made and formed via a chemical process.
Sure, my quinoa, buckwheat and whole grain noodles mix has not too much starch by nature but some.
Producing resistant starch works better with higher starch foods, like potatoes and stuff.



Before you criticize my English:

Because somebody criticized my english....

English is not my mother language. My motherlanguage is german which i personally never liked.
My spoken english is very good but i rarely had to write down much english in my whole life yet.
So i still have to develop a routine typing it.

I think this is just a thing of habit, you need to have a feeling for the most used characters in a language and in what typical order you type them. Also interpunction needs a certain routine to be written correctly.
 You have to develop the nerve connections within the brain for correct typing and spelling and interpunction.
I didn't wrote english very often in my whole life yet, usually i only speak it, ok?

Thats why my english on the blog is still choppy and full of mistakes. I just started to mainly write english here two days ago.

So what, it going to rapidly improve the more i write, im sure of it. Its good to do it!
Better talk and learn, than shut up to not make mistakes. ;-)

Of course, germans criticized my english. ^^ Whom else?
Honestly, i wanna see them do better. ^^

Its so typical for germans to criticize everything that isn't perfect. Its to typical for germans to criticize in general. All feedback I got for the blog was criticism. I wasn't even asking for their opinion...
Then they said, its well meant criticism. (of course it is......^^)

They said i rather should write in german instead of broken english...

As if its that what really matters.... I better write in the language i prefere, thats all.
Right now, you can catch a glimpse of why i dont love german too much^^. Its the whole mentality behind it.

And anyway, its not that i write a blog to get A++++ grades in english for it, ok?^^
I never stated its good.
I write the blog to share my stuff, have fun and to earn money, and i write it very quick while i watch tv, without correction reading and sometimes while i have migraine.
I try to spend the LEAST EFFORTS for it, and do not even try to make it mistake free.
I also use a lot of colloquial language.

*sigh*
And at leat i do something, i produce something, i create something, i share something. This alone is a positive thing for me, my life and my brain health (concerning all the neurological damages)

This is so typical. If somebody criticizes that my english isn't perfect, its always ONLY the germans. (probably their english isnt any better than mine, its probably much worse). A native english speaker never ever even once criticized my english.

If you read this and if you are german and you have the wilde urge to criticize EVERYTHING  here:

Please let it. I dont wanna hear it. I dont care. Leave me a lone. Leave my mood in a good conditon.

My baker cyst in my left knee really hurts today...

Monday, November 26, 2018

Retro games and my Android phone

Hello darlings!

Yesterday night i wanted to listen to only the audio of a youtube video. I and everyone else in the world hates that youtube pauses the video when the phone screen is off. Right?
I think this is completely unacceptable! I understand they just wanna make money with it, since you only get the feature to stream music while screen is off in the paid youtube version.

But for these cases I'm smart and i am a geek and my android phone is rooted and there is xposed framework installed, too! *ecstatic smile*

By the way, this beauty is my phone:  (kiss it on the screen please)
 Yes, its the pink Samsung note 4!!!

I know, its outdated, but i had a black note 4 and always really liked it for playing emulators on the big screen (5,7") and also really wanted to have it in pink. <3 p="">
I also need it as a tv remote, since it has infrared too. Very nifty.




















Here is the front side.

 I ve put some high quality tempered glass onto it. Alas, there is no tempered glass containing small grains of glitter, for this model of phones. That would be so dope!


I decorated it with mere nail art stickers. That idea is from @momotokio (search for her on instagram and twitter) The stickers stick there surprisingly firm, even though they were very cheap from aliexpress. Great thanks to @Momotokio and greetings!


The little bow as a homebutton sticker is from ebay, its just 99 cents^^. I painted it with iridescent nail polish, because the pink shade didn't matched the phone at all, before^^

The little charm on the phone is very silly, i know! ^^

Here's my home screen:


 Icons are from/made with Cocoppa and i use a Widget app with which you can make widgets from custom pictures. :-D



The wallpaper is from an earthbound (snes) screenshot and i edited the colors to suit my liking. <3 p="">

I also use various xposed modules, but listing them all is too much work, right now.^^


You can of course ask me everything.

I thought, I'm going to use this phone at night from now on, whenever i wanna have some audio for sleeping. This battery is cheap and easily replaceable, unlike the battery of my iPhone....

Here´s how i solved the problem that youtube wont let me play videos when the screen is off:

For me, the xposed framework module "YouTube Background Playback" totally worked! Thanks so much to the developer of it! Hers the link:

YT Background Playback on XDA

But normally i use this phone mainly for playing video games on the "big" 5,7" screen. A real gameboy screen was much smaller ^^. I like to play old super nintendo games, some old gameboy games, and also old point and click adventure games, too.
And yes, all these games you can play on your smartphone. It even doesn't have to be the newest device to work smoothly enough.

I use all the paid versions from the Johnemulators group, they are the best in my opinion.
<3 p="">Just search for Johnemulators on the play store.

I modded them to have nicer looking controller buttons, because i wanna have nice looking buttons :-D

Puuuuure beauty:



Very cuuuute games <3 br="">

How do you like my controller mods? If the button is pressed, hello kitty wearing a tutu appears *snicker*

I show you the games i recently played:
Ouch:



And of course, much much more.

I love these old games. Pixels are the best graphics and those games are made with love.

Do you have your asthma spray, ninten? <3 p="">

<3 p=""><3 p="">If you want to have these modded buttons too, you can write me and for a small donation on paypal, ill send to the .APKs.
<3 p="">You´ll get: John Snes, John GBA, John Nes, And John GBC. 
<3 p="">All apks modded with beautilful looking controller buttons. Its not the newest versiosn of the apps anymore but the version before the newest, so still up to date und fluent and all.
<3 p="">
On my phone, i have many very cute modded apps, made by LadyPinkilicious! She is such a skilled modder and designer. Thanks so much, for all the great stuff, and its really worth to visit her site:
https://ladypinkilicious.com/

Look i got such cute modded apps from her FOR FREE:


 Click on the picture to enlarge or use the browser add on i recommend "Hover zoom" it lets you zoom a small picture, while you hover your cursor above it.


And yes, i follow and love the curious zelda.<3 p=""><3 p=""><3 p=""><3 p=""><3 p=""><3 p="">Its all custom, as you can see :-)
<3 p=""><3 p="">
Yeah, im in facebook groups for obese animlas and stuff. Wy? I have no idea X-D

<3 p="">While i write that all, i wait for my fresh washed hair to dry enough for dying it green. 
<3 p="">

<3 p="">Btw:
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<3 p="">This is my iphone now: I still absolutely love it!
<3 p="">


Me and My life: Poverty because of chronic illness

Now, i worked a bit on the blog. I'm more and more satisfied with it. It could become a sort of oasis isle within the Internet.

I'm honest and i confess, that i also run this blog to earn money. (yet i didn't earned anything at all, yet)

Being able to make a "money machine" with what you like, this would be a dream! I think it really need a high intelligence and/or passion to do so.

Until now, i was always too lazy to write frequent blog entries, also because I'm never in the mood to write so much german... ^^
(its so scratchy and exhausting)

Some details more about me:

I'm really poor and often have trouble to buy everything that i need.
It starts with food, where i really have to make wise decisions as buy things in a special offer or more kg of it, and everything like that. I need to eat really healthy so that my diseases improve. Many vegetables i can only afford, when they are offered cheaper.
Often i buy cheap stuff, that is also healthy. Like Potatoes, apples, onions, carrots. Quinoa i buy in 9 kg so it is cheaper.
I am a very good cook and can cook amazing stuff out of everything. I'm really a food enthusiast, and buying/cooking food makes me really happy!


Some food is very expensive but also very, very healthy like avocado, nuts, papaya....

Its so worth it, and that's why i spend very much money on food every month. I'm just a passionate cook and appreciate good food. I really love it!

I also need other health products as zeolite, coconut oil, natron, spirulina, tumeric, xylitol , magnesium chloride, castor oil, and so on and on. (sorry, if the terms for the above are german)
Sometimes i brew a drink out of garlic and lemons with peal. I need to buy these things from the bio store, it has to be absolute pesticide free for this. Also not cheap.

Some of these things i have to ask my parents to give me for Christmas or birthday.


Here some good looking food as well:

Where i really save money is on clothes. I shop for clothes extremely rarely, also because i simply hate it! ;-)
I hate nothing more, than wriggle out of my layered winter clothes in a super overheated second hand store, full of softener smell, to which I'm allergic, store being filled of stressed, unhappy woman, atmosphere there is usually is filled with complexions and the shame about poverty.
Trying on clothes is not such fun for me, looking to the mirror, with my chronic optic neuritis which depraves my sight of depth and other visual abilities... Vision is no fun for me, its rather a migraine trigger.



But at least I am not ashamed of being poor! *laughter

Er, yes and when you wonder now, why i don't work, i can tell you that too.


I'm chronically sick. I was never healthy in my life.

Even as a child, i have had headache everyday, often migraine, heart problems.
When i grew older i got a lots of neurological problems. I have a very strong vertigo from time to time. It feels like I'm drunk. Sometimes i have also movement problems or abnormal muscle rigor.


As you see in the picture of my pants and shoes, i still kept my humor. :-)


To conclude, I'm only able to be active every 3. rd day. I'm usually sick for more than half of the time. And with sick i mean, that i can not go out anymore.

Very often, i go out and be active even though i am too sick, just because I'm a very active and optimistic  and mostly happy person. I'm full of ideas and plans and there are always so much things i want to do. Its not healthy for me to be too active, but i started to live for the moment since i went through times i wasn't sure if I'm going to even have a future.
You know what i mean?

Yes, i life for fun, because if I'm very happy i also have less pain. Most pain medications don't really work for me, so i meditate. I meditate to produce lots of endorphin to get really high, so i don't suffer so much from my pain.

I can feel like on ecstasy, and that's no overrating. I think, god gave me that ability so i can endure my shitty sick live.

I am very thankful, for what i have.

I love my life and its really fun even in spite of all the pain and disability.

But what i really could use is a pair of good durable shoes.^^

If you want to help me with a little money, please directly donate me via paypal. rottenfurby@gmail.com

Look, here is even my baked apple i recently made:


Otherwise, if you plan to buy something expensive on ebay, amazon or aliexpress, send me the link and i convert the link to an affiliate link. You pay the exact same amount of money as before and i earn a little percentage of platform fees.
This almost only pays out, if more expensive things are bought, like beyond 30€ or $.

Time for the grinch to come.... with pic of me (the grinch)

Hello, my friends!

Today was a.... maybe not the best day, but i feel really good anyway. Really euphoric about my newly gained health with:

-Zeolite
-Ashwagandha
-Tumeric

These things are really cleaning up your body and then repair it. Especially for my rotten nerves, that are so in a mess.
Honestly, i shouldn't let out to do:

-coconut oil

too. But for me it tastes not really good. Gulping down big spoons of it isn't so mine, unluckily.
So what, i feel fine right now. Zeolite is also amazing as a facial mask, it purifies the skin even better than charcoal powder!
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Now Christmas time is coming and i decided to dye my hair green, Grinch green! :-D
You know what i dislike about Christmas time?

Shopping miles are extremely crowded, and not only that, all the people seem much more stressed and bad mooded than usually.
How ironic if a celebration of love like Christmas, leads to much more public annoyance by the need to buy material presents...

That's why i wanna set a sign and combine my "ugly" Christmas pullover with Grinch green hair.
I'm not one of these grumpy person that are stressed in public, i buy all the presents in time and online ;-)

You know whats sucks?

In winter, i always need to wear ear warmers, if I'm outside without earwarmers for just five minutes i get a bestialic ear ache. (Thanks chronic mono...)

Not all the headbands look good on me or are comfortable. Maybe i have a big head, since most of the headbands are a little too tight for me.
Damn, i need to buy five more like these, they have a Velcro for custom width -skulls!
lol
like this:
 Yeah, i think its really sad how much racism exists at the moment. In Europe, and everywhere else.

I have the feeling, like, no matter how you look, there is always someone to loathe your eye color, your skin color, your hair color.
Your job, or if your jobless.
Your body no matter if your sporty and healthy or a really weak and sick person.
There is always someone who hates all the features that you have or don't have!

Why the hell these people cant look upon their own lives and just spend the energy to improve their lives, instead of hating someone?

I have no guess what experience the people must have made....

But the experiences that i made is also not great! I don't have it too good! I'm not treated too well! I have no health, i have no money.
And all that i have now, is what i was working really hard for, every day!!!!

I also dislike to be liked by certain people, too. Some people are..... really not my type. I also dye my hair green today to be less liked be the false people to be honest.
I'm just fed up with that much polarization. Some people love me, some people absolutely despise me. Only because of the way i look. None of these even know me!!!!

I find it so stupid in what direction humanity seems to evolve now, or better said de-volve.
Sad thing.
They're so superficial, its so pathetic.That's really making me sad recently. That's why i will dye my hair green today to hopefully reduce that spook! Haw, haw!!!!





click me to buy directions hair dye!
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 Whoa, today i was shopping food in the german Aldi.

I'm so glad i could buy good buffalo mozzarella cheese for 1,10€ a 100 gr. (i know this is probably not really good buffalo mozzarella, but c´mon be not too critical, I'm really really poor, OK?)
In the Aldi i saw a product named "Super Dickmann´s"


Just that name alone is something to smile, i don't have to explain, right?

But then the product also is named "Dicke Nüsse" what could mean "big balls" I'm trivia.

I really think the producer of this made the name so lewd for purpose. Sex sells.

Honestly i on my diet had recently so much appetite for anything sweat and caloric, i could really have some Super Dickmann´s dicke Nüsse right now. x-D

No way, i have to loose weight. Still a bit.

My kidney beans that were soaking in water over the night are cooking ready right now. Kidney beans is one of my favourite main food, its so high protein, low kcal and fill the stomach for very very long.
Please prefere dry kidney beans always, if you live in a country where bisphenol a is not forbidden to be a component of the inside coating of tins. Its a shame!

This is my high protein food for weight loss today:
Of course you also have to move much too, before you eat that.

The same day very late at night:

Finally my hair is dyed bright green now. :-D I share the precious fruit of my work:

Its more green in reality... Hair is still absolutely wet and color looks different in flash light.
I´d say it will be pastel greenish in daylight. I just combed all the hair in my face, to not be fully visible. Combed in the other direction the green is much more intense.



Hell, im so sexy.






Haw, haw!