Showing posts with label hate. Show all posts
Showing posts with label hate. Show all posts

Saturday, December 1, 2018

Shoes - an endless story

About my problems with shoes.
                
Shoes are also a big subject in my life. I'm a person, that really enjoys to move. After a walk of 6 miles, i feel absolutely rejuvenated.

Before i caught my chronic mono i was walking everyday for about 6 miles, now alas, i am far not so locomotive anymore. :-(

I still try to walk as much as i can. The result is also that my shoes are worn down inedible fast. I have such a high wear of shoes, that's stunning. I wear the sole off like an eraser gets consumed up by someone who does many many mistakes.
Its no jokes.
Unhealthily, i have a very hard way to set my foot of and i usually walk very very fast.

Once when i still weighed some kgs more, i entered a store and the whole floor was shaking. The shipowner said in an amused way, that i trample like an elephant.^^
Its orthopedically not good to have such a way to walk.

I usually made the following mistake: I bought cheap shoes from the internet or shoe stores.  Even i try them on CAREFULLY or let me tell the exact inch length of the insole online, most shoes just doesn't fit me.
I have complicated feet and i have no idea why, because my feet look really good and i have an average size.

I personally hate too big shoes. As a very small person it looks soo stupid when i walk around with big looking shoes. And if i slip slightly out of shoes it looks even more ridiculous.
Slipping out of shoes happens very easily, my problem is that my front foot is broad and my heel is very very slim. That's the problem.

And even if i have fitting shoes that are comfortable, they will wear down very very quickly.

I wore shoes for 2 days and the first signs of wear and visibly at the sole heel..... My friend was stunned by that.

Now I'm tying something different, i will buy brand shoes instead. I like plain shoes, black, gender neutral shoes that let you look slimmer and a little bigger.

I like shoes as dr martens style (but only 3 eye) even they don't suit me, because i look even more evil and suspicious in them..... *sigh* This is really a problem for me. I don't wanna be noticed as someone evil, but it happens very often. So what, I'm self assured enough to wear what i like and not what suits me or what others like on me. :-D

 I really like brogue shoes as well. And of course, platform shoes!
Platform shoes are very advantagefull for small petite people! They let you look also slimmer and well proportioned. As a small person you can make the maximum out of you with higher shoes.

Oh dear, i got very good news:
I just won an auction on some dr martens! I goth them for only 42€ ! Black, like new, with steel toe!
I'm sooo happy! What a bargain! I hooope they will fit!
38, i bought 38.

Hahahhahahahaha, I'm so happy, really. Even if they don't fit, i can still resell then without a loss.
 Exactly these.
buy dr martens for 45$
How do you like them? How about that shoelace?
To show my real ideology, my real mentality by the look of that RAINBOW shoelace.

I'm afraid that will not fit for a 3 eye shoe.... Maybe i will find a solution...

Otherwise, people full of hate and prejudices will put me in the wrong corner again. :-( But I'm afraid, that will even happen with rainbow shoelaces.... :-(
It hurts me badly and is such a disgusting insult!

I don't know, some stupid young women (mostly), who think they are such good persons always wanna accuse me and hate me, just for the way I look. They think, someone who looks like me must be a bad person. I don't know why. How sad.
I also don't hate them and if i do, never for the way they look! :-)

One friend jokes: Who don't gets insulted to be a Nazi nowadays probably does something wrong. (We are both left)

Ok, i even really found such rainbow gradient shoelaces for 3 eye shoes! 60 cm long.
Hahhahahaha, great. They are intended for children, tho.

Monday, November 26, 2018

Time for the grinch to come.... with pic of me (the grinch)

Hello, my friends!

Today was a.... maybe not the best day, but i feel really good anyway. Really euphoric about my newly gained health with:

-Zeolite
-Ashwagandha
-Tumeric

These things are really cleaning up your body and then repair it. Especially for my rotten nerves, that are so in a mess.
Honestly, i shouldn't let out to do:

-coconut oil

too. But for me it tastes not really good. Gulping down big spoons of it isn't so mine, unluckily.
So what, i feel fine right now. Zeolite is also amazing as a facial mask, it purifies the skin even better than charcoal powder!
...
Now Christmas time is coming and i decided to dye my hair green, Grinch green! :-D
You know what i dislike about Christmas time?

Shopping miles are extremely crowded, and not only that, all the people seem much more stressed and bad mooded than usually.
How ironic if a celebration of love like Christmas, leads to much more public annoyance by the need to buy material presents...

That's why i wanna set a sign and combine my "ugly" Christmas pullover with Grinch green hair.
I'm not one of these grumpy person that are stressed in public, i buy all the presents in time and online ;-)

You know whats sucks?

In winter, i always need to wear ear warmers, if I'm outside without earwarmers for just five minutes i get a bestialic ear ache. (Thanks chronic mono...)

Not all the headbands look good on me or are comfortable. Maybe i have a big head, since most of the headbands are a little too tight for me.
Damn, i need to buy five more like these, they have a Velcro for custom width -skulls!
lol
like this:
 Yeah, i think its really sad how much racism exists at the moment. In Europe, and everywhere else.

I have the feeling, like, no matter how you look, there is always someone to loathe your eye color, your skin color, your hair color.
Your job, or if your jobless.
Your body no matter if your sporty and healthy or a really weak and sick person.
There is always someone who hates all the features that you have or don't have!

Why the hell these people cant look upon their own lives and just spend the energy to improve their lives, instead of hating someone?

I have no guess what experience the people must have made....

But the experiences that i made is also not great! I don't have it too good! I'm not treated too well! I have no health, i have no money.
And all that i have now, is what i was working really hard for, every day!!!!

I also dislike to be liked by certain people, too. Some people are..... really not my type. I also dye my hair green today to be less liked be the false people to be honest.
I'm just fed up with that much polarization. Some people love me, some people absolutely despise me. Only because of the way i look. None of these even know me!!!!

I find it so stupid in what direction humanity seems to evolve now, or better said de-volve.
Sad thing.
They're so superficial, its so pathetic.That's really making me sad recently. That's why i will dye my hair green today to hopefully reduce that spook! Haw, haw!!!!





click me to buy directions hair dye!
......

 Whoa, today i was shopping food in the german Aldi.

I'm so glad i could buy good buffalo mozzarella cheese for 1,10€ a 100 gr. (i know this is probably not really good buffalo mozzarella, but c´mon be not too critical, I'm really really poor, OK?)
In the Aldi i saw a product named "Super Dickmann´s"


Just that name alone is something to smile, i don't have to explain, right?

But then the product also is named "Dicke Nüsse" what could mean "big balls" I'm trivia.

I really think the producer of this made the name so lewd for purpose. Sex sells.

Honestly i on my diet had recently so much appetite for anything sweat and caloric, i could really have some Super Dickmann´s dicke Nüsse right now. x-D

No way, i have to loose weight. Still a bit.

My kidney beans that were soaking in water over the night are cooking ready right now. Kidney beans is one of my favourite main food, its so high protein, low kcal and fill the stomach for very very long.
Please prefere dry kidney beans always, if you live in a country where bisphenol a is not forbidden to be a component of the inside coating of tins. Its a shame!

This is my high protein food for weight loss today:
Of course you also have to move much too, before you eat that.

The same day very late at night:

Finally my hair is dyed bright green now. :-D I share the precious fruit of my work:

Its more green in reality... Hair is still absolutely wet and color looks different in flash light.
I´d say it will be pastel greenish in daylight. I just combed all the hair in my face, to not be fully visible. Combed in the other direction the green is much more intense.



Hell, im so sexy.






Haw, haw!